The Divine Presence is everywhere.
- Hoshaia Rabba. Talmud: Baba Bathra
Have you ever wondered what would happen if you constantly re-created yourself? From day to day you found a new level of experience in Life that changed who you were. In fact, the only constant you had was Change.
So...you get used to that - the constant (r)Evolution of You. You thrived on the Changing so much, that you would manufacture reasons for change. When there was a lull in your life, with nothing buy quiet, you start to crave that "A-Ha" moment, so you rush out to find some question that needs an answer Right Now. There is agonizing, self-reprisal, navel-gazing and loads of searching.
Mind you, there is nothing wrong with this, but it keeps you from staying in one place long enough to figure things out. Chasing rainbows is awesome, but in the running you might miss the beauty that is right in front of you.
Not that anything I've just written sums up what I've been doing for years. Nope, not me. I've never, ever done anything like that at all...
Ahem...
Know Thyself
While the origin of this can be debated, this very small phrase speaks volumes. Knowing yourself is a pretty good thing. It really doesn't matter how you get to a personal understanding of yourself...just that you try. That you SEEK, and never stop seeking. Who cares if you have to change who you are from moment to moment (day to day) to figure out who you are. This is how you find out who you are not. Once you know who you aren't, you can figure out who you are. ;)
Guess I've spent the last 38 years figuring out who I am not. ;) It seems, too, that I've allowed myself to seek, learn and understand things...and in doing this I've seen how I thrive on The Game. Even if some find this maddening about me, or it makes me seem all Wishy-Washy, it is who I am...or was...or still might be. I love the Journey.
I've been in the same place for some time. It has been nice...and it was nice to be there. Now I must go to another place. I must go to the place I've run from for so many years. In all my searching, all my journeying, I didn't stop to search the greatest landscape of all...Me.
Confused yet? ;)
After all the sweats, all the meditations, all the "therapy," I've never stopped to ask myself all the questions everyone else asked...
What do you want to do with your life. What is is that you seek? Why aren't you being authentic to yourself?
I am answering those questions right now...even at this very moment...
A new Life Journey is starting. I have found out who I am, and who I am not. I see all that I Am, and all That Is Around Me. I give Thanks and Praise for the lessons Life and the Divine have passed my way. The "Mistakes" I've made, or the thoughts about myself, that I thought were "awful," were really just little steps toward the bigger picture...a little glimpse into "what happens when you screw up." :)
So...yeah...here I am, once again. Nothing new to report. Nothing new to exclaim. Just me, Kim U, walking my path and singing my song. Except for this Journey I'm Aware and Awake.
I wonder where I will go this time?
;)
Much love!
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